written by: Brian Wayne Smith
One of the biggest reasons I've pushed myself to where I am today. Was because of
how I was raised. Single mother home, tons of family members to stay on me,
but at the end of the day it was mom and I. Wanting to make my mother proud
has been a huge drive for me. I wanted to hear it from her. Without her feeling
obligated to tell me.
Well last night mom called me. The first words out of her mouth were
"Brian, this is your mother."
Followed up with some questions and answers she had for me. Within 10
minutes of being on the phone I heard these words
"I'm proud of you."
I'm 35 years old, to hear these words....
(Pay close attention to what I say next)
...and actually believing them now, made me feel like I've accomplished something.
My mother has told me many of times she's proud of me. This time, when she
randomly called to tell me, it finally hit home. She has always been proud of me.
She just wanted me to do better than she did in many different areas of life.
We talked on the phone for hours. As she talked it made me emotional. Yes I'm
her only baby but she does view me as a man that is taking care of his family.
I'm beginning to think God is trying to tell me something; because
too many important people in my life are breaking down walls that I had built into skyscrapers.
I'm a husband, father, electronic engineering test technician, writer, and student. Life is busy but I'm striving to live my dreams with my great family that I love deeply. There are times when I feel like a failure. Then I look at how many times I've fallen just to dust myself off and continue running the race. Now I can look around at my life and see that my "failures" were just locked doors that God wasn't ready to open yet.