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you were wrong

written by: Linda M. Crate

@thysilverdoe

 

you wanted to change me
everything needed to go
nothing in me could be salvaged
as i was

yes, i was depressed,
but it wasn't because i was always
lone in the house
it was because no matter how much i tried

no one would give me love;
couldn't find it at home or at school
always faced condemnation, scorn,
and bullying—

my tears were my alibi
prayers to God to save me from all
this heartache
now that i am free you are kind,

but it doesn't erase all the times
you broke me like my bullies at school
always testing my limits to see how far
you could take me until i broke;

made me feel like i was nothing but a burden
to everyone in my life including my mother
i was too afraid to ask anyone for anything including help
because you always made my needs seem so trivial

who the hell were you to make me feel so little and small?
i thought fathers were supposed to bless their daughters,
and to help them through life;
you were the blade shoved through my heart

twisted and pulled until i bled
nothing i ever did was good enough although i tried to
be the perfect daughter i was never going to be because you
decided that you hated me from the start—

it's okay, i'm not that scared and sad little girl
anymore that misses her daddy;
now i am the harpy
born of the right circumstances ready for war.

Linda M. Crate

Linda M. Crate

Linda M. Crate is a Pennsylvanian native born in Pittsburgh yet raised in the rural town of Conneautville. Her poetry, short stories, articles, and reviews have been published in a myriad of magazines both online and in print. She has three published chapbooks A Mermaid Crashing Into Dawn (Fowlpox Press - June 2013), Less Than A Man (The Camel Saloon - January 2014), and If Tomorrow Never Comes (Scars Publications, August 2016). Her fantasy novel Blood & Magic was published in March 2015. The second novel of this series Dragons & Magic was published in October 2015. The third of the seven book series Centaurs & Magic was published November 2016. Her novel Corvids & Magic was published March 2017.
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