My Trashcan Sleep, poetry written by Andrea E. Lodge at Spillwords.com

My Trashcan Sleep

My Trashcan Sleep

written by: Andrea E. Lodge

 

And my knuckles are always grey
I’ll get a smile back in the mail today
It won’t be mine. It’ll be fine.
Look for me in fields of baseball
Where I should’ve sat and just
Rode the banana-seat bike
Past the graffiti wall they smashed
They smashed it with childhood
I did sit in that driveway once
Though the promises were for more
I took away from me all of the things
That I never could grasp
Am I still holding on,
As I sleep in the trash?

Tippy to the right
Can’t find Eminem
I wrote fuck you all over that invitation
And cried
No one will know the death I eat
Swallow everyday with a gulp of horrific
And lost things
Like daylight
And wooden wands with glittery tops
I gave away and took back
Now pearls look alright sometimes
And I don’t fancy the everlasting crash,
Am I still dreaming,
As I sleep in the trash?

So many trees say AEL
Check the lost and found
Where there are sticky icky old mouth things
And I won’t taste this anymore
Salt licks and lick salt off top lips
I have and gave and rave and reach
Rubber bands are always rotten someday
I’ll never be the one you smiled for
My kid, she is
Your kid fucked up with the lid flipped
And dropped the eggs
Fractures at the library in the rainy grass,
Am I still crawling around,
As I sleep in the trash?

Andrea E. Lodge

Andrea E. Lodge

Andrea E. Lodge resides in Philadelphia with her husband and two disabled cats; Budgie, with only three legs, no tail and who is constantly drooling, and Loki, AKA Poki, AKA, Pokapotamus (because he weighs 20 pounds), a Scottish fold with only one folded ear. She studied English/Secondary Education at Holy Family University and taught middle and high school Writing and Literature after graduating. She is now a full-time Writer and something resembling an artist. She has had several poems featured on Spillwords, two pieces included in an anthology by Havik, several poems and some prose in different issues of Alien Buddha Press’ Feminist Agenda, The Alien Buddha’s Block Party: Blackout Poetry, Alien Buddha’s Zine #12 and Alien Buddha’s Zine #21, her poem, Screaming at Tiffany’s, was in the 12th issue of Voice of Eve magazine. She has also had some work featured in Danse Macabre’s Entrée DM 123 and DM 125: Fete de Noel. She has also been featured in the Winter edition of Soul Lit’s online ‘zine, 2019. As of late, Andrea has written reviews for the books Evocare (Ayo Gutierrez, Eileen Tabios, Brian Cain Aene) and The Tears I Never Told You (JinQue RD). Andrea has also edited The Tears I Never Told You and Are You Ready? (Ayo Gutierrez, Gigi D. Sunga, Ph.D.) She has most recently had her poetry featured in the anthology, Scentsibility, a book of poetry related to the senses.
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