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Restless Mourn

Restless Mourn

written by: Alison Vail Fuller



a rain deluge usually comforts         wraps me in its song
only this morning its ominous tune
and hollow lyric wake me from my sleep

it is the 20th day of this new year
an inauguration day like no other

hide the flags!     
raise the blackest of umbrellas!         as they do little to shield us from this reign

I won’t tune in         just the thought of his image         turns my stomach

drenches my soul with dread

I remember this feeling
waking up at this fourth hour         into a new day

it resembles          that morning
the day after          my Husband dropped dead

the shock is not as great today
but the feeling of loss is palpable         overwhelming
weeping greets this day   
as I awaken into the nightmare of loss

for myself         for my sleeping daughters         and now for my country

instead of hope         I feel defeated         and I mourn
tomorrow I will rebound and find my fight again
my patriotism will shine as I march downtown with my comrades 
we will link arms and believe we can make a difference
a unified statement for decency, integrity, and compassion

this morning my tears blend         with the tears of the darkened Venice Sky

tomorrow we will open our umbrellas
and embrace our unity
and I will hear the rain’s mellifluous song

Alison Vail Fuller

Alison Vail Fuller

Activist. Warrior. Survivor.
The blank page beckons. It can provide the key to truth, to inspiration, to enlightenment, and to justice. At a time when fundamental democratic institutions are under assault, arts and letters can give testimony to the unprivileged, the underserved, and the forgotten.
I write because it is life sustaining, and I hope that my words reflect, even in a small way, the indomitability of the human spirit.
A Connecticut girl transplanted to New York City’s East Village, I later found my way to Venice, California. I was quickly won over by its tableau of diversity, art, and the breathtaking views that always promise better days—for our daughters, our sons, and all mankind.
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