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The Atlantis of Memory

the atlantis of memory

written by: Falon Willow

 

after eavan boland

 

a handful of moments before nothing
becomes more nothing, you are

dizzy with warmth, thimble shots
your anchor to the sunlight zone

of yourself, your hail mary to let
the water touch you.

the edges sanded, you tempt yourself
into submerging your face

but now you have to see
the millions of fish swimming

unnamed inside you.
the cutaneous layer of algae

you grew without skill, carmine
stripes burrowing their way

to the surface. your belly brimming
with unhatched eggs

the life festering while you floated
unaware of the desperate maw

lurking. a whole ecosystem
immolated out of survival.

all of these years, your body,
the memories it’s borne;

the lost city, a relic identified
by debris miles from the coast.

if you take to the floor now
you won’t be able to resurface

without reeling so far into the past
you, too, will be found as rubble.

if you want to map the old sunken streets
you won’t make it back through

the bends. there is no safe return
to your buoy of unknowing.

the only way home now is to remember
that this rusted bedframe, this

pebbled floor wasn’t always a layer
of jellyfish husks. this was home once

& it can be again.

Falon Willow

Falon Willow

Falon Willow is a 19-year-old writer from New Hampshire. She's obsessed with girlhood and analyzing everything around her. She was the co-Teen Poet Laureate of New Hampshire from 2019-2020. Her work has been featured in several online journals and she self-published her first poetry collection Sweet Dreams & Violent Ends in 2021.
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