Drowned to Finally Breathe

Drowned to Finally Breathe

written by: Yukta Phoenix

 

You watch me like you own my being.
A ghost in your grip—
I try, but it’s not freeing.

You pick apart my soul
with your monstrous claws.
I forget how to live
as I choke on my screams,
so jagged and raw.

I can’t fucking breathe
without you inspecting that air.
Maybe that’s why I prefer
to drown and disappear.

Till I asphyxiate on words and feelings I invalidate.
Till water replaces my air,
or maybe they are tears I shouldn’t dare.
Till my lungs can’t expand anymore.
Till my shackled beasts
clash and roar.

Till on water I choke,
as my drowning I cloak.
Till I finally see that haunting white light.
Till God finally cradles
my broken and burned might.

Till He says,
“Come, angel. Come.
No need to roam.
Come, baby…
You’re finally, finally home.”