Pause written by Cristina Munoz at Spillwords.com

PAUSE

PAUSE

written by: Cristina Munoz

@cristinamunoz8

 

the grey phone cord tenses
coiled around my fingers
i pause

“You don’t get it Cristina.
My feelings for you are far stronger,
than your feelings for me.”

this brand of love bleeds pain
stuns me boldly into feeling
creating a stillness
interrupted only by your breathing
a gentle rasp

how can i tell you?
you want, need
deserve a love
i’m not wired to desire
with any man

intended coming out,
“I’m Gay.”
make you laugh
say,

i might as well start wearing
a lemon construction helmet
with ‘WOMEN ONLY’ in black
like the cute girl, dancing
(what a fantastic sight!)
at the ‘Village People’ Metro Gig
late last Sunday night
not today

instead, i said “I’m sorry.”

inside our loaded moment
you whispered sadness,
“It’s okay.”
i sighed, it wasn’t
wishing i wasn’t me

Cristina Munoz

Cristina Munoz

Cristina Munoz is working on her first collection of prose poetry in Woodend, Australia. Her poetry was first played on air throughout Australia and included in "WORD UP An Anthology Of Youth Poetry" as part of a Youth Poetry Competition held by Triple J and the ABC. Since then she has had poems published in 'Poetry Australia". Cristina has a passionate love of music which fuels her poetry and has had album reviews for various alternative bands published in Beat Magazine. She is currently dedicated to the sound of women in alternative pop and rock by writing album reviews and music musings as she manages SoundOfWomen.com
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