Scars
written by: Brandi Easterling Collins
@caniscareyou
Some nights when I can’t sleep
My mind wanders back to another time
Where the heartache must have happened
To someone else, someone I never knew.
I want to go back sometimes
Maybe to right the wrongs
Or do things differently.
The memories still have power over me.
I hate that I’m still reminded of you
After so many years and wasted tears.
I wish I could take them all back.
It was my youth I allowed stolen.
I gave you myself because I loved you.
I managed to survive the pain of loss,
But then you came back
And almost destroyed what was left of me.
When I let you break my heart again
It was my fault, and yours too.
Do I regret loving you? No.
Do I wish things had ended differently?
Maybe. No. Not really.
I locked away the hurt, pushed it down.
The scars from you are healing,
But still bleed sometimes.
I want to see a shooting star,
Without thinking of our first kiss.
I want back the passion I had then
To share with someone who loves me.
Late at night when I can’t sleep
And words come flowing out of me
I want back that piece of my soul,
The one I gave to you.
I’m a fraud who’s lost part of herself
along the way. I have to get it back.
I can’t take back my youth
Or the time and tears spent.
I try to hide my scars
but they resurface.
I can’t erase the memories
So I must write over them.
Brandi Easterling Collins
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