Beethoven
written by: Hritvika Lakhera
As I turn deaf to the world,
Could I still hit the right note?
Could I lead with a tune?
Could I still stay afloat?
As I turn deaf, tell me Lord,
Could I still trust my senses?
Could I compose a life
That isn’t apprehensive?
I want to be a Beethoven
I want to block out everything
When life is just a jot too loud
I want to be a Beethoven
I stumble even as I hear
I fall down straight on my face.
If I shut out the world
Could I keep up the pace?
I can’t hear a sound around
I can’t grasp time or space
Yet fly I with winged feet
Yet I hardly miss a beat.
I’m feeling like a Beethoven
I breathe in and I count to ten
I play on but don’t hear a thing
I’m feeling like Beethoven.
Hritvika is a resident of Dehradun, Uttarakhand, and completed her M.A. in English from University of Delhi. She has published an anthology of poems titled Solitude and Solace, and maintains a blog called ‘Saint of the Denial.’ She has co-founded an international punk zine titled New Riot Inc. and takes literary interest in academia around punk music. Hritvika is involved with queer and mental health advocacy and volunteered at Recover Media, freelancing as a peer counsellor.
