natural disasters
written by: Alyssa Brocker
@Atelgy
i know what you want now
and
it isn’t me
some people leave your life
and you have to let them
i just…
don’t know what i want
and i can’t ignore
the
ache
between
my eyes
because
when i say your
name that’s where it
resides
memories are only there when i’m lying in bed, wearing your t-shirt, clutching my purple pillow,
wondering when,
if,
i’ll fall asleep
love isn’t
50/50
i hate you for the bad times,
but
even more for the good
all my friends are sick of hearing your name
almost
as much as i am of saying it
and i spend most of the time in my room remembering when i would lie awake and stare at
you
i remember screaming at you in the car
angrier than a hurricane
caring about you,
about us,
because isn’t that how you know you love someone?
caring so much until you’re out of words and you sit staring at a picture all day thinking about the color of someone’s eyes and how you’ve never seen something like it before and how you want to see nothing else ever
again
but you love someone else now and i don’t want to think about it
so,
i’ll just think about that day in the city in my pink dress
and your shoes that never matched
and i’ll hold my breath when i walk by your work,
wondering if you’re there behind that red open sign
wondering if i’ll say
hi
- Reason To Be Sad - June 10, 2020
- (ir)(rational) - March 16, 2019
- Without Him - January 30, 2018
