Irrevocably… (Not Anyone’s)
written by: Gabby Scroggie
Love is weird,
It’s strange,
And foreign,
And different,
And scary,
And consuming,
And pause and
Rush all at once.
I yearn for love.
I want to feel it
really feel it.
I want to know what it feels like
to know there’s someone irrevocably
my own.
To feel unlovable
is to feel as if you are being stabbed
like a knife twisting in your stomach,
slowly.
Painfully.
It’s hard.
To see those closest to you be loved,
To see them go from the girls you
giggled with in your rooms
to being irrevocably someone’s
To see them get what you want,
To smile through that,
To be happy for them,
To accept that you aren’t getting that.
It’s painful.
It’s lonely.
It’s this constant niggle,
This constant feeling of not enough.
I love my life.
But I’m not content with it.
I am proud of myself.
But I am consumed with shame for where I am.
Love is weird.
It’s strange.
Foreign.
Different.
Scary.
All consuming.
A pause and
Rush all at once.
Something you crave.
And something painful to not get.
- Irrevocably… (Not Anyone’s) - May 3, 2026
