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She loves me with so much fire,
She loves me with a powerful desire,
Her passion is such a daunting thing,
A blaze of heart’s light so enduring,
But I feel nothing.

I feel her racing heart behind her bliss,
I feel her lost in our gentle kiss,
I fear that hope in those eyes brimming,
I lay beside her, she holds me sweetly dreaming,
But I feel nothing.

She weaves the future before our eyes,
She seeks blessings from the endless sky,
I smile yet no more than a lie,
Tears elusive, even as my reflection takes a beating,
For I feel nothing.

Her love and devotion was so rare,
The dark truth was so easy to bare,
Nothing to offer, she just wanted me to hold her,
Even in my embrace, I yearned for something,
But I felt nothing.

A slow decay she didn’t deserve,
Only fury and remorse did my confession earn,
Scorched yet cold they say is the feeling,
Yet even in the desolation of everything,
I still feel nothing.

Her love is too strong for life to be unkind,
A kindred soul soon found her as I remained blind,
Empty in light and dark, am I such a cursed thing,
I seek that divine spark, even an ungodly reckoning,
Yet I fear I will feel nothing.

Ayushman Jamwal

Ayushman Jamwal

Ayushman Jamwal is a journalist based in New Delhi. He is a Senior News Editor at CNN-News18. Ayushman is a graduate of the Cardiff School of Journalism, United Kingdom and started writing poetry when he was a student at the Doon School in Dehradun. He lives with his parents, younger brother, grandmother and dog Leo.
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