My Christmas Present
written by: Josie Dee
@Josi3_dee
When the family gathers and the smiles start flowing
With the cold crisp air all eyes are glowing
When the air seems filled with festive tunes
And laughter hangs in the decorated rooms
Like gossamer threads in the frosty morn
Starlight glistens, they burn brighter than before
Telling tales of the moments gone, the unforgotten days
Are handprints ghosted on surfaces, gifts and doorways
A cliché; I know, but it’s the small things I adore
At a time where we all notice and are more aware than before
Moonlight shines, it seems to be lit stronger
Illuminates the smallest glance to make it last longer
I’m not at one with my loss, my heart breaks in a heartbeat
But this holiday without them can be bitter-sweet
It’s taken me years to accept those who can’t be here each year
But with those who I have I have with no need to fear
That’s what it means to me; what the festivities can give
Is everyone’s permission to take the time to just live
Having this time with my loved ones I love and cherish time more
And make the most of who I’m with now, not who I lost before
Moments are deceiving as time dances away, it’s okay
Kindness spreads like sun-kissed footsteps on a frozen day
Taking the time in its moment, not to forget, but push through
I can revel in misadventure… because I will have you
Sunlight bursts, dancing over everything
On days at home with you my heart’s full enough to sing
Because my rose-tinted world, my delight in small things
Is my gift to myself before the new year begins
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