I know you’re gone, but it hurts so bad.
These are the worst feelings I’ve ever had.
I can’t believe you’re no longer here.
I just can’t help shedding a tear.
I know you won’t be coming back to me.
And I search for that memory.
The memories of you bring me a smile.
But that only lasts for a short while.
I know you’ve gone away.
And we’ll be back together one day.
Until that day comes, I’ll struggle on through.
Knowing I’ll have great memories of you
I'm 53, from Leeds. I was diagnosed at 21 with Charcot Marie tooth which is a muscle wasting condition. Then just after my 40th birthday I was told I had Parkinson's. My life changed, my walking got worse. My eyes got worse, my movement got worse, then my speech became bad. Then 7 years ago I had Deep Brain Surgery. I went into a dark place called depression. I even considered suicide. Then I met a man who was a comedian and whose husband had Parkinson's too. We spoke for hours about Parkinson's and depression. I went to see him on stage, and he made me laugh for the first time in years. Afterwards he asked if I wanted to organise a comedy show myself in aid of Parkinson's UK. He would get 3 other comedians to do the show. The comedians he got were Eddy Brimson, Peter Brush and TV's Gary Delaney and himself, Jonathan Mayor. It raised £1,200. And the rest is history. That man saved my life.