Searching For You
written by: Satabdi Saha
I search for the quintessential you
trying to drown myself within my being.
Waves rush above overwhelmingly,
yet I remain afloat pulled out by worldly strings
of desires you so cleverly devised.
Tearing out frills from the earth’s surface, I feel
confused and guilty, unable to break my shell of illusions
intensely crying for succor from myself, on burnt sands
at a ragged time of shrunken, brittle- edged space, when
ready to toe the finishing line of life’s morbid race
diving again and again to immerse in the waters of salvation
to rouse the latent love residing
unconscious inside my struggling soul.
The sky seems like a distant land, petrified
by the world’s obsession with the mundane
unconvinced of my yearnings beyond, though
my frailties too I plead as offerings to be punished,
but the more I try the more entangled I am.
In my urgency the most beloved pieces of my past
I beg to tender as fuel to light up my soul
my pains transformed to prayers, my devotion
a reaching out, my sorrows, as incense, rising
to mingle or immerse in the essence of your being.
- Searching For You - January 9, 2025
- Refusal - March 4, 2023
- Kinship - August 18, 2022
