“Mist kissed the grass of the lakeshore.”
He handed me this memory as if I was
a part of a vision inside my crystal ball:
inside the bubble of Lake Michigan.
In the vision, he placed a thick blade of grass
between his thumbs and blew the whistle.
It was one of those small things he had enjoyed doing
and nobody had known about since he had been
a very private and secretive person: to him, manifesting
the state of his inner void had been irrelevant.
In the vision, he pointed out the reeds and, suddenly,
told me how he had told her – once, as a young man –
that there was nothing else in his pocket than a stone.
This memory was so important that he emphasized it:
“I told her that I only had an onyx in my pocket.”
The black gemstone
should have been more than enough for her, but no.
In the vision, he stood and stared at Lake Michigan.
After a silent while, he turned to me
– as if he was surprised to have a visitor in his bubble –
and having a smug – yet, not mean or spiteful – expression on his face,
“You’re flipping the disc.”
This discovery of new emotions made him smile,
and his smile and newfound warmth made me smile.
“Yes, this is the B-side,” I told him,
and he seemed to like it more
than the A-side.
“This is my sanctuary,”
he stated and granted me a bewildered look.
“Cool. You’re so cool,”
he blurted out a compliment.
I was cool:
I only had to look at Lake Michigan to know it.
Paula Puolakka (born August 18, 1982) is a Beat poet, writer, and MA (History of Science and Ideas.) In 2019, The Finnish Reserve Officers' Federation gave her an honorable mention, honoring the academic legacy of Mr. Ludwig Wittgenstein & Mr. Theodore John Kaczynski. In Dec 2020, the PhDs of Tampere University gave her appreciation: her academic article - celebrating her Master's thesis of 2012 and the academic legacy of Mr. Kaczynski & Mr. Wittgenstein - was published by Hybris. In April 2021, Puolakka won the second prize in the "Lahti, the European Green Capital 2021" writing competition. Her story celebrated "Teddy." In Dec, she landed second in the writing contest held by Haloo Maaseutu (monitored by the Centre for Economic Development, Transport, and the Environment.) From Aug 2021 to Feb 2022, Puolakka was the representative of the City of Oulu. Her sixth book came out in Nov 2022. The name of the "limited edition science-art Christmas gift" was Banded Krait: the collection of the acclaimed Beat poems, including her award- and challenge-winning poems (USA, South Africa & Canada, 2019-2022.) A few of them were dedicated to Mr. Kaczynski and Mr. Wittgenstein.