written by: Nicole Cheng
There is a red light in between us,
It’s a sign that something is wrong.
There is no heart, only a beat,
One, two, three, four, five I would say.
I’m afraid of leaving, I’m in fear of staying.
I can’t say that I love you;
I can’t say I hate you.
You’ll always be my love, my soul,
But the issue is you’re a monster.
Even though your kisses became kicks
And your hugs became hits;
You may have thrown me in the mausoleum
And you push me down to my grave,
I still want you by my side.
I want to make gears turn in machines,
And make the windmill spin.
Alas, the monster in you has taken over:
You continue to bring more agony to me;
You brought more pain to me;
And you’ve got me frozen in cracked amber.
I just want to become a fresh ember
As the flame burns the house down.
I cannot leave you,
I cannot betray you,
I cannot hate you.
I still want you, even though you’ve changed.
I still need you, despite your brutal ways.
I want to be a baby bird from the nest;
I want to be a cloud floating in the sky;
I want to be a kitten roaming in the garden.
But I still want to be with you.
As the yellow light appears
Before our eyes,
We continue to spread our love for one another,
Though, that could be a sign of danger.
I don’t want any more of your pain,
I don’t want any more of your monstrous ways,
All I want is a green light.
No more red lights,
No more yellow lights.
Just a green light in between us,
And maybe we can make this work.
Even if there is a red light,
Even if there is a yellow light,
I refuse to leave, I want to stay;
Though, I don’t want any more beats,
I want more hearts in between us.
Please, let there be a green light in our love,
So you can take me away.
NOTE FROM THE AUTHOR:
If you or somebody you know fell victim to domestic violence or showed any signs of an abusive relationship, call for help. They’ll always be there for you.