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I Want It Darker

Freya Pickard·July 20, 2022

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I Want It Darker

written by: Freya Pickard

@FreyasClippings

do not criticise my musical taste
because it does not match your own
death-light devours, delights in macabre
lost innocence can never be regained

there is darkness inside me
hollow emptiness
where once my heart resided
incapable of emotion
now my womb has gone
save for blind rage
and negative frustration

what you find mellow, bores me
what inspires you, sends me to sleep
such things no longer resonate
instead, recognition resounds
when twilight notes
and shadowed lyrics reach my ears
they keep the demons at bay
take the emptiness away

I identify with midnight
these melodies of nightfall
lyrics breathed in shadow
syllables born of frustration
rage expressed
strikes a chord within

for now the hollow place is no longer empty
the darkness is hallowed
and echoes with peace

for aliveness and connection
give me Disturbed and Ghost
but if you feel I need to chill out still
well, there’s always Leonard Cohen –
You want it darker?
you bet I do!

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Pushcart Prize nominee, Freya Pickard, is the quirky, unusual author of The Kaerling series, an epic fantasy set in the strange and wonderful world of Nirunen. A cancer survivor, she writes mainly dark fantasy tales and creates expressive poetry in order to leach the darkness from her soul. Her aim in life is to enchant, entertain and engage with readers through her writing. She finds her inspiration in the ocean, the moors, beautifully written books and vinyl music (particularly heavy metal and rock). She enjoys Hatha Yoga, Bhangra and Yogalates and in her spare time creates water colours and pastel drawings of the worlds in her head.

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A textbook example of nominative determinism, Lou Storey has always been a storyteller, a fact well illustrated in his art and in his writing. His careers have reflected that as well, first as a creator of idea-based exhibitions for museums, and later as a psychotherapist employing narrative therapies. His art and his writing share qualities of rich texture and detail, examining our capacity to be absurd while allowing a measure of forgiveness for our foibles. Storey and his husband Steve retired in 2021 and moved from New Jersey to Savannah Georgia. “We love everything about Savannah, it is like a city that looks like a park and thinks it’s a small town. Best of all, we can grow bananas in the backyard!”

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