I feel the places where my bones join together,
These hands can hold a thousand hearts, but instead they hold the weight of the world’s judgement,
I feel aggressively average, and yet the world tells me I am different,
I sit alone and doubt my differences,
And then I enter the world,
Its harsh noises and bright lights grind me down,
I am a fine dust on the wind of the typical world,
Buffeted about by that which denies my difference,
I try to communicate, and yet it is as if I am speaking a foreign language,
I have no desire to speak the common tongue,
I am human, I am me,
I am the answer to the question “what’s the difference?”
I diverge from the normal and embrace my own beauty,
In a world of monsters, I am a unicorn,
I have found my tribe, and they will be with me when the monsters find me.
David Gray-Hammond is an autistic addict, sober and in recovery, living in Brighton, UK. He is a presenter and educator for Aucademy. David also presents the podcast "Especially interesting" from Aucademy, which can be found on Spotify. He writes and speaks extensively on the topic of autism, addiction, and mental health, and is working on a poetry collection to capture his life as an autistic addict. He has spoken at a number of conferences and runs the Facebook page Emergent Divergence. His writing can be found on his WordPress site - Emergent Divergence.