From breakfast to lunch through nightmare, I trudge along –
here I sleep, here I cry in a barren landscape –
my hands empty in this division of parts,
lonely for something to touch –
fingers to dance with mine
in hunger that I own.
These days are a drag.
Whisper that you love me –
words floating on the breeze to meet my ears, my lips –
carried along rays of sunlight,
the comforts of moonlight
to land in my aching heart.
I am a prematurely closed volume,
forced onto a shelf too small.
A woman wondering how God could sleep through this
as she awaits hope to swim back to her.
Dreaming of love like a life jacket –
a blanket to be swathed and soothed within.
Unafraid to admit fear in this, the Devil’s playpen,
where there are far too many unknowns that scald.
To whatever’s pulling the marionette strings of My America-
take from me my lot of possessions,
these things I have only pretended to own.
Chisel away at my mind, body, and soul if you must.
But don’t take our capacity for touch –
my salvation from quicksand.
NOTE FROM THE AUTHOR:
There’s an element of “prolonged social distancing” that we’re not yet discussing, but we will: the loneliness epidemic — and I’ll wager that it’s equally as deadly to the human body, mind, and spirit. This is when we learn what we value, who we cannot be without, and who or what we need to move towards in order to maintain truth in a Twilight Zone-d reality. I pray that one of those things is me.
Julia R. DeStefano is a Red Queen who wears many hats but one crown. A confessional poet, she captures moments and preserves them in the glistening amber of language. She also believes in the penning of Paradise into existence through powerful verse. Julia is a woman driven by love and healed by intimacy who uses imagery to paint vivid pictures of darkness and sensuality. Her first poetry collection, 'Leave Everything,' was published in 2016 and tells the story of the search for self-love and acceptance through a rollercoaster of emotional experiences. Julia believes that the most challenging things in life are those that ultimately end up being the most worth it; that to be loved well is to have won at life; and that the heart will never, ever lead the head astray. Look for Julia atop her throne of books.