Silence! I said.
But she kept talking
about her problems, her hopes…
I couldn’t care less for her low self-esteem
or for that pigeon that got crushed by a car
and for his partner, perched on a lamp post nearby,
waiting for hours for him to come back
Silence! I cried,
since I couldn’t care less for her fear of dark,
her fear of cancer,
and her fear that I will dump her
one day, like any other day,
“I’m out to buy cigarettes,”
and never coming back.
Silence! I said,
my voice steady and firm,
avoiding her eyes,
emerald green, sparkling in tears.
No, I didn’t want children with her,
nor family, nor marriage, nor future…
I didn’t want to kiss her goodnight,
nor to hug her when coming home from work.
I needed space.
Lots of silence.
But her voice battered my body
like a watermill:
I couldn’t suffer its beat anymore,
so I flushed it away with my fears.
“Silence,” I said,
and I molded her into a poem,
asymmetric and disharmonious as her crying.
All her laments and cries of despair—
one by one,
into the fragile luster
of a decadent poem.
I turned her tears into stanza breaks;
her sobs and sighs
became commas and full stops.
Silence, I whispered;
and I carved her into this poem,
and sent her back to the world,
surrendering to the silence swallowing me,
reminding me how lonely I am.
Adriana Morgan completed a Ph.D. in French Literature at the University of Letters in Nantes, France. She is fluent in six languages and worked as a translator and terminologist at the European Commission in Luxembourg and the United Nations in New York. She taught French at the University of Jamia Milia Islamia, New Delhi, India, the French Alliance and the Universities of Valparaiso and Vina del Mar, Chile. She currently works as a multi-dimensional artist: painter, poet, translator, and children's picture books writer and illustrator. She is the first prize winner of the Midnight Mozaic Fiction (Medium, 2019), one of the selected winners of the Canadian poetry contest—Quebec and the Francophony, and second prize winner of the Daniil Pashkoff International Poetry Contest, 2018, Germany.