The first thing that took over my mind,
Waking up early this morning was you.
I understand that you will never be mine,
But I can’t get you out of my mind.
I ignite my cigarette and take a deep breath,
Smoke fills my lungs the same way as you’ve filled my mind,
I go to a place where I do not want to be,
Just because I know that you also will be there.
Seeing you and seeing your smile,
Just a couple of words with you brightens my day,
My problems turn into nothingness,
Suddenly I have a reason to be alive.
Yet I stand there like a fool screaming
You are my obsession!
You are my addiction!
You are my weakness!
But then I wake up once more,
And understand that destiny is playing an evil joke,
I’m just a fool if I thought that you ever could be mine,
So once more I light up my cigarette,
And let the smoke fill up my lungs,
Just like you fill up my mind everyday.
How could I be able to give you all what you want?
if I found myself stuck in a crossroad.
I know one thing for sure,
That I would love you eternally,
I would do everything in my power to make you happy.
Yet you won’t ever know it,
Because I will stay silent forever.
Controlling the fire of love in my hearth,
Until it is washed out with sorrow.
NOTE FROM THE AUTHOR:
I woke up in middle of the night and started writing out of nowhere. Words just kept coming, it was at the time when I was fell in love with a girl not even knowing it, but it was one-sided love. The next morning I let her know how I feel, but that made everything worse at the time, ’cause she loves another.