The Reckoning (River of Pain)

The Reckoning

(River of Pain)

written by: Jose A. Tovar

While I slept
While I dreamt
Deep within my core
From within my soul
Manifest hatred arose in me
Manifest suffering came for me

And it all came to pass
This animosity came so fast
Total domination came so fast
The reckoning came to pass

Acted abominations
Created desolation of this paradise
(But this is war)

Acted abominations
Created desolation of this holy site
(But this is war)

I prayed to be forgiven
I screamed to be forgiven
But the reckoning came to pass
Yes, the reckoning came to pass

Now a monster I have become
For all the evil I have done
These shadows will never be gone
They suffocate my will to overcome
(I eat my guilt)

In a river of pain
Reason I cannot attain
Control I cannot regain
From the demons that remain
(I eat my guilt)

Thus in this loudness
In this sadness
I awaken to madness
In an ocean of darkness
(I eat my guilt)

Deep within my core
From within my soul
A monster I have become
For all the evil I have done

Deep within my core
From within my soul
Control I cannot regain
From the demons that remain

Acted abominations
Created desolation of this paradise
(But this is war)

Acted abominations
Created desolation of this holy site
(But this is war)

I prayed to be forgiven
I screamed to be forgiven
But the reckoning came to pass
No, this river of pain will never pass

I repent
(Take my sins away)
I repent
(Take my sins away)
I repent…

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Jose A. Tovar

Inquiring freethinker undertaking a journey of moral and intellectual transformation: I strive, I search, I hunt for the hidden and forbidden, mold it into poetry, and let the shadows within me burst free...

B.A. in Political Science, former Analytical Linguist, and lover of liberty.

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